March 12th
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figuringoutmy20sgod the idiots upstairs are being ridiculous.
They have always been super loud, and it usually does start around this time, 9-10PM. Ever since I moved into this dorm, it has been this way; and I've debated leaving a note under their door, but I just worry that I might get into some trouble for doing that as it would probably be a very nasty note, or that it would just do nothing because they definitely seem like the entitled type who would try to be even louder after knowing it gets a reaction. It's obviously 4 boys up there; and I can hear them yelling every single night while they play video games or whatever it is they're doing. Does it really require THAT much noise?????? I've considered the idea that they're probably just plastered or high every fucking night and this is how they get. Their poor mothers, honestly. Recently though, it's the tapping, banging, clanging, for minutes at a time where it just doesn't stop. Seriously wtf could you be doing in a dorm room that needs to be so fucking loud. It's even more infuriating that my roommates and myself have called the front desk and talked to the RAs about this SEVERAL. TIMES. and I honestly give up on asking them for help anymore. We've been told, "well the lights are off and it was quiet when we walked by so there's nothing i can do," and "I don't think the noise is actually coming from there." Just absolutely fucking useless.
Other than that, I've really been craving for my vape or THC oil all day long, but I've shown restraint. I want to stay sober until tomorrow night at least when I go back home for the weekend. I need to lock in for my biology test tomorrow and I don't want to inhibit my brain's thinking power right before a test. It just feels so itchy though. But I'll try to be good.
I had a math test earlier this evening. I don't feel super confident about it, I never do after a math test. When I'm doing math, I like to have someone or something tutor me along the way to make sure I'm doing things right and understanding why things have to happen in certain orders. But when i'm all by myself with that test in front of me and it's all up to my own wits, it can be really difficult for me to not second guess.
All of the things I've just mentioned can be circled back to my ADHD. Irritability and sensitivity to noise (it does seem to affect me a lot more than it does for my roommates, they don't complain about it as much as I do), the craving for using drugs (I think there is some established Cannabis Use Disorder in me, which is a lot more common in those with ADHD), and that remembering the steps for solving and working with math problems is hard for me. I wonder if I would have the same problems if I weren't neurodivergent, or if I'd see them in a different way.
They have always been super loud, and it usually does start around this time, 9-10PM. Ever since I moved into this dorm, it has been this way; and I've debated leaving a note under their door, but I just worry that I might get into some trouble for doing that as it would probably be a very nasty note, or that it would just do nothing because they definitely seem like the entitled type who would try to be even louder after knowing it gets a reaction. It's obviously 4 boys up there; and I can hear them yelling every single night while they play video games or whatever it is they're doing. Does it really require THAT much noise?????? I've considered the idea that they're probably just plastered or high every fucking night and this is how they get. Their poor mothers, honestly. Recently though, it's the tapping, banging, clanging, for minutes at a time where it just doesn't stop. Seriously wtf could you be doing in a dorm room that needs to be so fucking loud. It's even more infuriating that my roommates and myself have called the front desk and talked to the RAs about this SEVERAL. TIMES. and I honestly give up on asking them for help anymore. We've been told, "well the lights are off and it was quiet when we walked by so there's nothing i can do," and "I don't think the noise is actually coming from there." Just absolutely fucking useless.
Other than that, I've really been craving for my vape or THC oil all day long, but I've shown restraint. I want to stay sober until tomorrow night at least when I go back home for the weekend. I need to lock in for my biology test tomorrow and I don't want to inhibit my brain's thinking power right before a test. It just feels so itchy though. But I'll try to be good.
I had a math test earlier this evening. I don't feel super confident about it, I never do after a math test. When I'm doing math, I like to have someone or something tutor me along the way to make sure I'm doing things right and understanding why things have to happen in certain orders. But when i'm all by myself with that test in front of me and it's all up to my own wits, it can be really difficult for me to not second guess.
All of the things I've just mentioned can be circled back to my ADHD. Irritability and sensitivity to noise (it does seem to affect me a lot more than it does for my roommates, they don't complain about it as much as I do), the craving for using drugs (I think there is some established Cannabis Use Disorder in me, which is a lot more common in those with ADHD), and that remembering the steps for solving and working with math problems is hard for me. I wonder if I would have the same problems if I weren't neurodivergent, or if I'd see them in a different way.
